Sometimes, this is the worst. You never re-live the bad times. Only the good… and soon, that ‘i miss this’ feeling comes into play. And before we know it. Were stuck, stuck ten steps back from the progress that was being made. How can we move forward if we’re stuck in the past, wishing we had that happiness of the ignorant bliss back… to have that feeling of a whole warm heart again.
Its crazy. Because even through the arguments I smiled. But it’s not you i miss. It was who you were to me. I could have loved anybody… but I chose to give it too you. I remember the whole process of slowly piece by piece I started to give you all of my heart and the more I gave the safer I felt…. I was just a fool in love, well… what I thought was love.
Every moment we spent together, I always took in every second. I can still feel your touch……..
But none of this matters anymore. I’m moving on and moving forward. Waiting for the day where I can create new memories and use my knowledge from what I learned being with you to better my relationship and self.
This a chapter I’m ready to close.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Sunday, August 15, 2010
30 Days, 30 Letters. I’ve been wanting to write more often on here rather than just post music and videos. This is definitely a good way to get that started.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
When I needed to cry on someone’s shoulder, you were there. When I needed someone to take random trips with me, you were there. When I needed someone just to sit in the room with me and not say anything… you were there. And I still enjoyed every bit of your company.
I have plenty of close friends. But you stand out. I NEVER have to think twice about what I want to say to you, it could be the most outlandish thing and not even for a second would you judge me, have the time it was always a ”Me too!” I remember when I first met you, I didn’t like you to much. Seemed like just another rude New Yorker. It wasn’t until that one night at the studio where we became close. And each trip to the studio we became closer. There was never a time when i got tired of being around you. I think, yeah there was once. When we had that falling out. I wanted to talk shit about you, but the only person I wanted to talk to was you. Then that day when Mel’s instigating ass made us talk when I had to get my shit from you. First thing you said was ”I missed you Drea” … yeaahh thats right. I won bitch.
What other friend cries for you when you get hurt, feels the pain you do and not even in the same state. I love you, I haven’t seen you in a year. It kills me. Come back to me Johnnie.
P.s : bring your hair supplies. =D
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
when are we really happy? Are we happy when we know that things can't go wrong. When we don't know any better or better yet, the truth.
A baby always seem so happy because they can't comprehend the cruelties of reality. everything is at peace for them.
Now when a loved one hurts you, and your afraid to let that person go.... its then you wish for that ignorance to remain in that euphoria of happiness. To continue on and wish to deal with the pain a later time. Point is, truth hurts. Ignorance is bliss..... where would you rather be?
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I could be happy and complain about them all. But I sit here. Trying not to cry. Thinking of a way I fill the place you once held. Because I was so close to that happiness that i always wanted. Now it all seems like a false hope.
This all too familiar pain that I
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
but theres still something about me worth holding on to,
something left to help me grow.
But baby, you have to do your part and let go.
Let go and let love happen.
Mistakes are meant to be learned from.