So lets dance in the rain ; play in the snow,
Lets gaze at the stars until the sun decides to show,
Lets watch movies until we can barely keep our eyes open ;
But more importantly... lets do all of it together.
I cant quite put into stone what exactly I want, but I have few ideas and working each one of them everyday. Only thing that can stop me is God himself. Im not stopping til I’m satisfied and financially stable, no I dont want to be filthy rich…. but I want live without worrying about not having enough to pay my bills or food. In retrospect … I want to ”fuck and live comfortably” . haha I don’t know why that popped in my head, but it made sense for me.
I have a lot I want to do. So theres plenty of options for trial and error. I know the pathway to there will be rough, hell I’m experiencing my own turbulence now, but i’m holding on tight and enjoying the ride taking anything that knocks me off course as a learning experience….never a regret.
At the end of this journey, I know a lot of the people here now won’t be there in the end and even some of those will try to come back once they see your doing good. I’m prepared. As long as I know my family will be there…. its all I need.
I remember when I got to choose your middle name, its so silly to think of it now why I choose Courtney, but I still like it and it made me feel special that Mommy let me choose a name for you. =)
Your so annoying sometimes. I just want to lock you in a room and keep you there sometimes, but I know you’ll freak out because your too s
cared. It annoys me how scary you are sometimes… feel like yelling ”MAN UP” some times, because in the long run people gonna run over you.
But anyway. I love you more than you can ever annoy me. Im like a second and a half parent to you. I dont know what I would do if I ever lost you. I still wish you were older, I would love to take you out and get schwasted with me and cause all kinds of BS and corrupt you. *evil laugh* I wish that you were old enough to be up with me right now. I’ll take it how things are, because you’ve taught me a lot, learned to own up to my own responsibilities and prepare myself for when I have my own kids.